Same time a year ago

I just went over my entry a year ago - I seemed to be less stressed but more tired because of the socialising that was going on this season. I spoke about being away this year - guess what, I managed to do just that - I didn't do any christmas visiting this year yet and don't intend to. I take that as me 'being away'. Not bad, I do keep to my plans.

It's probably the quietest christmas season in a long time - and I feel great about it. With the exception of my gf and her daughter who are sharing my space with me, I have not gone to a single other household for festive makan and just stayed by the telly and my online game.

Although I'm not socially handicapped in any way, i'm just not a social animal - when I do hang out, it's never because it's something I enjoy - it's more like 'giving face' to my few but close friends who never forget to make me a meal or bake me a cake. But because they usually pack their homes with people (most I do know) on festive days, I find that too much for me - me whose head is not always screwed on correctly, me, who has lots of issues right now and me, who's pleasantly depressed. For me, slipping in a social function right now is like pushing me toward being manic and a bipolar case when I'm not.

I love work, so I'm glad work occupied me - it keeps me on my toes and away from all this frustration. I'm already thinking about respite in Bangkok after CNY - let's see how things go - it would very much depend upon class schedules and work commitments. I know class will be busy with stats going on and my research too but if things are less chaotic in Bangkok, I'll slip in a trip there.

so, not bad, I got my 'quiet' christmas wish from last year - running about for work doesn't count as being social, so I'll just be happy that I made it almost to the new year, Quietly.